I’ve found a distance from my trauma.
Heard has been on the stand for most of the week, detailing her abuse.
I’m not crying as I write this.
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I’m actually sitting at my desk inAllures office.
I just popped a Cheez-It in my mouth.
It happened years ago, and now I can talk about it flatly, with little emotion.
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“We expect survivors to be perfect in their responses, even under fire during a trial.”
The trial has become a depressingly predictable media spectacle.
it’s possible for you to watch it live on TV.
It’s been parodied onSaturday Night Liveand, for some reason, Lance Bass’s TikTok.
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Oddly enough, makeup has become a key player in the trial.
“She became very adept at it,” Rottenborn said.
(The couple divorced in 2016.)
When I told someone I was writing aboutDepp v. Heard,she flashed a conspiratorial grin.
“Whose side are you on?”
And so makeup was top of mind this week at trial.
Dr. Mosley says it’s common for abuse survivors to experience a sense of shame about their experiences.
Something some of thetrans womenincluded in the study repeated to Dr. Mosley still haunts her.
Covering my own bruises didnt feel like an act of control.
My mind whispered this mantra until I finally had the courage to believe it.
I’ll never forget the shape of that compact and the soft feeling of its padding against my skin.
I can still close my eyes and feel the product’s plastic in my hands.
